One Single Girl

If you want you can get to know me

I would like to retract a statement previously made to a friend about me being lonely. I realize it’s not the lonely that would require a male’s assistance. It’s the type of lonely you get when you live too much in your head.

The situations from the past few weeks really have me thinking about things I wouldn’t normally dwell so much on. All I know is my mind needs a vacation.

glitterstainedsoul:

wizcoylifa:

coelacanthteeth:

does Drake ever acknowledge that he was on Degrassi or does he just pretend like that never happened

they know, they know, they know

(via annetdonahue)

Just Another Saturday

How long does one wait for someone to decide to date them? They probably shouldn’t wait at all. I’m in this situation and I am unsure of what to do about it. I keep thinking that I should just live life how it is and relax about it, then if something comes of this situation then it does. Or if this situation doesn’t turn out how I want it to then there isn’t anything else I can do about it. My mood changes so rapidly sometimes I think that I am bipolar. Haha.

I realize I forgot to update about my dog Max (sometimes I forget I even blog). He is in recovery and seems to be doing rather well but only time will tell if he is in the clear.

This Wednesday Can Turn Around At Any Time.

      

We should find out today whether or not Max’s mass in his small intestine is malignant or not. Following whatever news we are given we will then decide what the best method of action will be. Let’s just hope he will be ok, I don’t think I can handle another loss of my pet.

Today isn’t turning out as well as I had hoped. After reading this news I hear from my mother that she has to see a specialist for her bone loss in her spine and back. It seems to all pile on at one time and it’s hard to handle.

Hearing from my best friend that he is “curious” to see whether we could be good together also blows my mind. He’s a great guy but right now my mind is set on something else, not to mention there seems to be too much going on for me to handle right now.

I am thankful however that I have my friends around me.

Desperation

There is nothing worse than a desperate guy or girl trolling all over Facebook talking about how single they are, need a significant other, or love boobs right in between posts of pathetic whining about how their last ex left them. At first I thought the whining was bad but now I get to read 100 updates a day of whining and things about how they love women/men and I just can’t take it. It fills up my feed to the point that I have to hide their posts and I shouldn’t have to do that since I filter my own friends list on Facebook.

When other people or myself post an update about something going on, said people do not need to respond with something not even on the topic yet relating to their singleness. It drives me insane!! These people will never find a significant other because they are too insecure in their own skin and have to throw out every 5 minutes that they are 100% single.

This is just something I needed to get out without going off on someone. Thanks to my blog for listening to my rant.

My Walls Are Back Up

So taking the advice of my friends, which by the way was really great advice, I asked the guy that I liked if he thought whatever it was that we were doing would go anywhere. His response, “I don’t know. I never thought about it”. What a smack in the face. This was something I think I knew in the back of my mind but I didn’t want to believe. I hardly ever like someone this much and as soon as I do it would happen that the feeling wasn’t mutual. However the feeling was mutual to hang out with me, watch movies and “do stuff”. Now I am thinking to myself that I must have misread all the apparent signs that I thought I was getting. He acted as though he had no idea that I even liked him when I had this conversation with him before. I let myself get upset over this while not letting him know that it was even a big deal. So the rest of the evening he continued to text me like nothing had happened and I’m not sure how I feel about that. He is a good friend but I am not sure if I can hang out with him and act normal now. What did I do? I hope I didn’t ruin a friendship but I am really glad that I got it out in the open. So now I don’t have to walk around with a giddy dumb smile thinking that he likes me.

So today is the day that I stop letting this get to me. My walls are going back up and I just hope one day I can let them down for the right person. I can’t help but think that this happened because in the past I haven’t treated guys who liked me very nice. I know when I got the reasoning he gave me it was something I have said numerous times in the past to people I have been casually dating because I didn’t actually want to date them.

I just have to remember this isn’t the end of the world, there are plenty of people out there would actually like me. It’s such a cliche thing to say but it is something that I have to get myself to believe or else I may go a little nuts. No crazy hair cuts or changes will be made but I will end up stronger because of this.

I have faith in myself.  

2 Years Old and Going Strong

          

The cutest kid in the world celebrated his 2nd birthday just a few days ago. A birthday that was filled with trains, pizza and a Mickey Mouse cake. Luckily he was in town a week ago to have a good time with his family. I am not particularly fond of children except my nephew who is the most amazing child that I know. I wish I could see him more but unfortunately he lives in New York and I of course, do not.

In another part of my life, this is the first time in I have no idea how long that I have been inside during the weekend. My Saturday has consisted of absolutely nothing productive unless you count killing spree’s on MW3 as productive (I sometimes do). I have attempted to watch Limitless but ended up in a nap on my couch which I am sure has absolutely nothing to do with the movie but with me being so lazy today.

On a good note, I am suppose to be meeting up with one of my best lady friends for a dinner date tonight. This is something that I desperately need because I don’t have too many lady friends AND I have been couped up in this apartment all day. Contact with someone from the outside world NEEDS to happen very soon before I hit another bottle of wine (THIS does not need to happen). 

So here is to hoping that everyone else had a more productive Saturday than I have!